agnosticism through spiritual meditation and contemplation,understanding through Gnosisdharma through Thaumaturgychange through Alchemypeace through StillnessTo all viewers of my Deconversion series of video, pay attention to this message.First, it goes with saying, watch them in order. Second, it would be best to watch ALL of them, before commenting or rating.Thirdly, This is my personal religious and spiritual journey. Every word of it is true according to my experience, memories, senses and subject reality.Fourth, these videos are MY journey you do not have to like my choices, or agree with anything in this video. There is also nothing you can do to prevent or reverse the journey that is vlogged here.I started with Abrahamic Monotheism because I had no choice, I was born to it. I evolved into and fell in love with Polytheism and discovered many secrets. In time, I evolved out of Polytheism and embraced Ontology and Meditation. Through the practice of prolonged sitting. Thousands of hours of sitting. I achieved a Great Stillness in November of 2000. After this experience, I knew who I was and what I wanted in life.. I also fell in love with my Inner Being. Having freed this Being by accessing the deepest levels of my mind and heart I healed myself of all the wounds of my soul, and was Broken no more. The abyssal blackness, the edge of madness and the inner desire to self harm and suicide was gone and has never returned. I have taken the path less traveled, and it has made all the difference. I do not need religion or philosophy to guide me. I am my own spirit guide now. I am Complete with the Universe inside and outside. You might call it the Tao, but who can name such a thing? Not I, nor you.It is my hope you that if you choose to watch my Spiritual Journey vlogs that you listen with an open heart and mind. You should watch the entire video, each of them, completely before considering replying. You do not know when the next minute or next segment will answer your question or broaden your understanding. Think before replying. If you do not like any of my videos, that is ok. I am not here to please and entertain every viewer on Youtube. If you seriously dislike one of my deconversion videos, stop and honestly think, why? What word, image or thought, caused your reaction.? The problem is not with me, but with you. On Youtube there is a great deal of talk about being Real and keeping it Real and just being Yourself. This video is 100% genuine reality. You will never find a story like this on broadcast TV.I can not be reconverted or saved, so do not even waste your breath. Nor will I ever be a true Atheist either, I am open to the possibility of some universal Force. You will never convince me of an anthropomorphic deity, please, do not try. If there is some Universal Spirit or Energy, you will all be disappointed as it is probably as dumb and simple as gravity or the weak nuclear field. It will not be 'Divine' or Sacred' or "Holy' It will be as dumb as the tides and whimsical as the wind. Just remember, my path led to me becoming One with Self. I healed myself of 20 years of suicidal depression. It was prolonged spiritual meditation that healed my mental illness. Silenced the Voices in my head, healed my Heart of it's undying Rage. It gave me peace. Something no religion ever did for me. Finally, if you like my videos, please rate them well. The price for being brutally honest and sharing real spirituality will no doubt land me abuse from the religiously intolerant and the spiritually ignorant from every direction.

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